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My Ex Was/ Is Crazy…

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I’ve turned this in my head for some time now and just a few minutes ago, I changed my TV channel to E4 and Made in Chelsea was on and that pudgy one, I believe his name is Spencer was telling his new girlfriend that his ex was crazy because she was paranoid that he was cheating on her all the time (which he was!). I liked his new girlfriend’s answer though. She said it drove her crazy when men said that about their exes and she was totally right. Man, if I had a dime for every time a man told me their ex was crazy! I never used to question why men said so things like that but, I learnt a few years ago not to take that at face value because, chances are, if a girl acts ‘crazy’, it’s because a man she trusted put her in that place. 

Take this stupid TV show for example, that guy has cheated on every girl he’s been with on the show so, if I was in that place as that ex of his, I would have been paranoid too! (Although she shouldn’t have been with the idiot in the first place). It took me back to a few years ago, when I was in a relationship with a guy that had a kid with another woman. He used to always tell me she was crazy and I believed it because I was unfortunately a victim of her ‘craziness’ but, once I had a chance to actually speak to her, I begun to question his sanity and not hers. I mean, if you get a girl pregnant, promise her the world and then go out every weekend to clubs and pick up girls to sleep with because your pregnant girlfriend couldn’t have sex with you and she found out? Do you then expect her to act anything short of crazy? I know I wouldn’t. I began to believe her stories more when he started going to clubs with his friends every weekend and then, the phone calls from other women started. One of them even found my number and TRIED to pick a fight with me! (I know right!) My reaction to that definitely put me in the crazy ex group but, it was a consequence of his actions. I was dating a boy I knew back in primary school in Ghana and he was engaged to a Nigerian girl AND was trolling the internet for more girls to sleep with… So, if his phone number ended up on Gumtree (I saw it as helping him to get what he obviously wanted, quicker), does that make me a crazy ex?  What about his behaviour? The worse thing a man can say about me after we’ve broken up is to tell his friends and new girlfriend that I was crazy. Men are devious and crafty and will NEVER tell the full story to another person (god forbid they say anything to knock themselves off the pedestal they put themselves on!). 

One will say; what if the girl was already crazy? It may well be that someone already has some issues which no doubt stem from past experiences, eg: relationship with male relatives, ex boyfriends etc but, I doubt there has been a crazy act by a woman towards a man without some sort of provocation from said man. If you tell a woman lies to get what you want from her and once you’re done, you decide to get rid of her (which is perfectly fine, not everything is meant to work out) in the worse possible way, like not answering her calls or texts, avoiding her and giving her excuses and sometimes even accusing her of things that you know she didn’t do and she gets angry and does something you don’t like, you call her crazy? Like Beyoncé said in Obsession, I’ll show you crazy! ha!

I’m not saying that some girls are not delusional and threaten to kill themselves, stalk you, boil your bunny and downloadtry to make you feel every inch as miserable as they do but, those are special cases that need professional help. Everyone has a bit of crazy in them and it doesn’t take much to bring it out sometimes but, like the legend Mike Tyson said in an episode of How I Met Your Mother; before you call a girl crazy, look at her ex, then you’ll see some real crazy! 🙂

And… she’s back!

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As I sit here staring at my screen, only one thought keeps repeating in my head. ‘Why did you stop writing?’ I decided earlier to put a stop to my self-imposed ban on blogging and get my shit together but, it wasn’t until I started typing that I realised how much I’ve missed this and how stupid I was to let one minor setback make me question my judgement . I decided that I am going to be bigger and better and more honest than I’ve ever been with my readers.

So, why did I run away from myself for a couple of months? Well, I’m sure most of you will guess the answer. It was because of a boy. Just one little boy trapped in a man’s body actually brought me to my knees in the space of 3 weeks! I think that in life, we all meet people who make an impact on our lives whether good or bad.

Although I am a great expert (I know, right?!) at giving people advice on relationships, I am totally rubbish at having one so, I went into one with all the good intentions of a girl who believes that not all men are the same and put real effort into it. Oh, he was a good man! He was so good, after a week of dating; he had me eating out the palm of his hand. I mean, what girl would not be over the moon when a guy she has dated for only 2 weeks asks her to meet his sister?  Although, that should have been a warning to me that it was too soon and we were moving too fast, I think I fell in love with him that minute! Don’t get me wrong, I was shitting bricks scared! My friends will tell you from our whatsapp group chats how crazy I was being. Questioning everything and second guessing myself but, he was so on point (for lack of a better word) that, even my friends called him Magic Mike because my attitude towards men had  changed drastically since I met him.

It wasn’t to last though. When someone pays you so much attention and then suddenly stops, you try all you can to find out why and I am somewhat ashamed to admit I did a few things that I always tell women not to do. The phone calls and texts, the sleepless nights and the crying, the drinking (ha, that actually is because I enjoy a drink!)And it took me longer than we were together to actually get over it. All of this made me feel like I wasn’t even qualified to give anyone advice on dating!

What did I learn during my time out from blogging? Quite a lot actually.  First of all, I know that I am not cut out for relationships. It’s not even about the right one coming along. It’s just a simple fact that, I like being alone. I don’t like thinking about another person and fretting over them. I don’t like that you open up to someone and give them all the tools they need to hurt you. I can’t even sleep properly if I am spending the night with someone so, what is the point? Everyone has a level of fuckedupness (yes, I just made that word up) in them and recognising them and dealing with them is better than burdening someone with them.

So, I am back to being myself again, I will continue to run as far away from emotional entanglements as long as I can and I am going to enjoy my life (blah blah). But, on a serious note, I missed all my loyal readers and I am not going away again. For now though, I will leave you with this amazingly true quote I found today: ‘’ passion is always a mystery and unaccountable, and unfortunately there is no doubt that life does not spare its purest children and often it is just the most deserving people who cannot help loving those that destroy them’’